Leaning on the Everlasting Arms

As I sit on my back deck enjoying the beautiful sunshine and light breeze I feel a stillness. The chaos that we live in currently is sometimes overwhelming. As always, I start to think that it is too much to bear and start to break down and cry. I miss my hubby bunny, those 4 months off really spoiled me and I became dependent on Tom for everything. With the addition of a new baby that has had colic/gerd since birth and hasn't stopped screaming, a new car after ours was totalled, a new home with the first time home owners learning curve, a new job that takes my husband away for all hours, and living in a new place where I know....no one, life can be overwhelming. But we have it so easy, my husband isn't deployed fighting in a war, my kids aren't battling a deadly disease, we aren't homeless, no one has died, we aren't living under persecution of our faith......how quickly our little problems seem so significant.

But how soon I forget that I need to be leaning on the Lord, not my husband, others or things for support. I forget that God protected Tom in that car wreck that destroyed our and 4 other cars, that he allowed us to be approved for a loan and bless us with our first home. I forget that He allowed us to Match at a great family friendly program and has us in Michigan for a purpose. I forget that I was blessed with a new child and with Grant 2 1/2 years ago, not by anything I had done, but because He GAVE us a family and all that we have.

I always say that God never gives us more than we can handle and I totally believe that or what kind of faith would I have. When the clocks hits 3 am and I'm holding my little crying bundle or when the dishwasher stops working for the 6th time this week, or the basement floods EVERYTIME I run a load of laundry how easy it is to stop relying on God and take all the blessings we have for granted. Just remember that it could all be taken away in a flash and that what is most important is that our family is together, healthy, safe and blessed.....and without the Lord we would be nothing.

Trust in the Lord, and do good;dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.Delight yourself in the Lord,and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;trust in him, and he will act.He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,and your justice as the noonday.
—Psalm 37:3-6

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,my God, in whom I trust.”
For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence.He will cover you with his pinions,and under his wings you will find refuge;his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.You will not fear the terror of the night,nor the arrow that flies by day,nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness,nor the destruction that wastes at noonday.
A thousand may fall at your side,ten thousand at your right hand,but it will not come near you.You will only look with your eyes and see the recompense of the wicked.
Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place—the Most High, who is my refuge—no evil shall be allowed to befall you,no plague come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning youto guard you in all your ways.On their hands they will bear you up,lest you strike your foot against a stone.You will tread on the lion and the adder;the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot.
“Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;I will protect him, because he knows my name.When he calls to me, I will answer him;I will be with him in trouble;I will rescue him and honor him.With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”
—Psalm 91